When we started I had no idea what this trip would turn into. 50-90% of me figured we would make it a few weeks and say forget it, we are going to bear lake until our renters leave, or we would have massive mechanical issues and be unable to financially have this trip make sense. I certainly didn't think that I would gain as much perspective on life and grow as a human.
Life is hard, and change is really hard. Sometimes though when the secret sauce is just right, life is just hard enough it starts to bend and change you. I feel that way about this trip. In no way was this an easy trip. It's complicated to travel for long periods of time and it takes a ridiculous amount of work to keep all of our life spheres revolving. I have to work, the kids need to be kids, Sarah needs to breath in nature and sometimes it felt like all of these were competing with one another. Eventually though all of our needs were meet. Maybe not everyday. Somedays work didn't get done, turns out maybe I was just doing busy work to be busy sometimes and I don't need to stress about work as much as I thought. Somedays the kids were basket cases because we didn't just let them explore and be kids. And Somedays we were cramped and camped out next to 50 year old rv's that hadn't moved in 20 years and Sarah could feel the walls closing in. The good thing was that usually all those terrible feelings happened on separate days and we made it through them separately.
Some days everything was golden a and we were able to bask in the magnificence of seeing the world and meeting new friends. Just like life, Somedays were mundane, but the sweet ones were oh so sweet because of the struggle it took to achieve them.
We are on our second to last night and are camped in a rV park in Yellowstone. And no, it is not as glamorous as it sounds. We are surrounded by 350 other campers and I can hear a police siren off in the distance, but we are doing it man. We saw the geyser, we went to the old faithful inn and it was hard and overcrowded but we did it and life is good.
Not having internet is more of a drag then it really should be. Honestly that was one of the parts we struggled with the most. Having internet access keeps me connected to work, but it also distracts me from life happening around me. I struggle with that. I want and need to be connected, but life can continue whether there is internet access or not. Tonight there is no internet, so there will be no work emails and internet browsing, but I might finish reading my book and watching 3 men and a baby on VHS. ($0.50 in Joshua Tree).
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